I should have called my father more..

My father died almost two weeks ago and well I was looking through my call log and now I feel terrible. I think he's mad at me for not always calling back or taking forever to do so. I admit sometimes I just didn't wanna talk on the phone because I don't like talking on the phone in general. Other times I just didn't want to talk to him, nothing against him. But I'm an adult so I don't feel the need to have to constantly talk to my parents and well that was my mentality. All my father's voicemails he left are gone cause I deleted them every few days. Would be the standard message like "Hi Amy this is dad, give me a call when you get the chance. Okay I love you honey I'll talk to you later, bye bye" something like that. Since they're all deleted I can't listen to his voice anymore. It kills me that my father is gone and I should have called him more and I think he's mad at me for it. He was cool about it, he understood I had my own life. Well that's what he'd tell me.

Last time I talked to him was 4 days before he died and it was a short conversation.

I should have called my father more..