Hi
I need some help distinguishing this. I have been suffering from ocd my whole life. 10 years ago it developed into religious ocd. I haven't been on any ssri's for about 5 years as I've managed to cope well without them.
The other night I had smoked some medical marijuana that I use to help me sleep some nights. A short while after I had a random image in my head of dead relatives saying they were "coming to take my boyfriend away". As this is one of my biggest fears- a loved ones death. My ocd rituals are usually based around this. I was extremely anxious at this point and trying hard not to think about any religious figure. Suddenly a voice in my head said "Lucifers coming to get ya!" And my anxiety was now on a ridiculous level. Everytime I would try not to think of what was going on and suppress the thoughts, a voice would come in and say something else.
a few days later I thought in my head, why are you here, and a voice replied back (in my own voice) "to kill your boyfriend". Now this sounds ridiculous, but I'm wondering-is this a drug induced psychosis or intrusive thoughts / voices coming in as I've tried to not think about my fears whilst anxious and it comes back 10 fold?
Please help as this is really scaring me and I can't think of anything but this
I need some help distinguishing this. I have been suffering from ocd my whole life. 10 years ago it developed into religious ocd. I haven't been on any ssri's for about 5 years as I've managed to cope well without them.
The other night I had smoked some medical marijuana that I use to help me sleep some nights. A short while after I had a random image in my head of dead relatives saying they were "coming to take my boyfriend away". As this is one of my biggest fears- a loved ones death. My ocd rituals are usually based around this. I was extremely anxious at this point and trying hard not to think about any religious figure. Suddenly a voice in my head said "Lucifers coming to get ya!" And my anxiety was now on a ridiculous level. Everytime I would try not to think of what was going on and suppress the thoughts, a voice would come in and say something else.
a few days later I thought in my head, why are you here, and a voice replied back (in my own voice) "to kill your boyfriend". Now this sounds ridiculous, but I'm wondering-is this a drug induced psychosis or intrusive thoughts / voices coming in as I've tried to not think about my fears whilst anxious and it comes back 10 fold?
Please help as this is really scaring me and I can't think of anything but this
Religious ocd
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