My husband and I have been together for over 8 years and married for a year and a half. It's not been all sunshine and roses in our relationship and have separated once before. To make long story short when we moved closer to attend school is when I had an accident and was unable to work. I had to be on crutches for over 3 months and it was miserable but it had put all of the financial and housework burden on him on top of taking care of me.
I felt guilty because we had always shared everything 50/50. We were struggling to make bills and our relationship is what suffered. I found out during all of this that he was talking with multiple women on dating sites... It crushed me and to top it off he said it was my fault...my fault because of me weight and that I was not helping out more around the house.
I was a wreck and could barley look at myself in the mirror, he had told me before that I needed to lose weight for my health but then it became more about my looks. The most devestated I have ever felt was when he told me that I'm no longer attractive to him... It felt like he ripped my heart out and shattered it. And It's not like we met and I was skinny but I had gained maybe 15lbs due to the accident. I don't think I've ever looked at myself the same since...
It has been 3 years since that all happened. He has since apologized for his actions and how he treated me but I still have been having resentment and worry if he will do it again... Is there anyone that can share some wisdom and help me learn how to trust my husband again?? I do want to trust him but my self esteem still has never recovered.. Every time I bring it up to him asks why I have to keep punishing him -_- it still affects me to this day and all I want to do is make this work..
I felt guilty because we had always shared everything 50/50. We were struggling to make bills and our relationship is what suffered. I found out during all of this that he was talking with multiple women on dating sites... It crushed me and to top it off he said it was my fault...my fault because of me weight and that I was not helping out more around the house.
I was a wreck and could barley look at myself in the mirror, he had told me before that I needed to lose weight for my health but then it became more about my looks. The most devestated I have ever felt was when he told me that I'm no longer attractive to him... It felt like he ripped my heart out and shattered it. And It's not like we met and I was skinny but I had gained maybe 15lbs due to the accident. I don't think I've ever looked at myself the same since...
It has been 3 years since that all happened. He has since apologized for his actions and how he treated me but I still have been having resentment and worry if he will do it again... Is there anyone that can share some wisdom and help me learn how to trust my husband again?? I do want to trust him but my self esteem still has never recovered.. Every time I bring it up to him asks why I have to keep punishing him -_- it still affects me to this day and all I want to do is make this work..
How do I begin to trust him again?..
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