Just help

I'm too scared to talk about this in person.

I don't think I exist, and I think that me writing this is proof. I don't believe in coincidence, only synchronicity, so why else would I be having these concerns. I haven't met anyone else who feels this way, so I'm beginning to think there's either a problem with me - or maybe everybody else but this is not likely. I have I have I have I have heard things that others don't hear and seen things that others don't see. They usually never command me to do anything, they only call me and say "it's true". There's a constant feeling that something is watching me, but I know that there's nobody in my house. I'll often begin to cry without reason, and have considered hurting myself. I've also begun to think things like "you could die right now," and "you're going to die" and "this one is over, let me in" over and over and over and over and over again. There's notebooks filled with all the things I think and hear.

I've lost touch with all my acquaintances and have lost interest in everything but the universe and afterlife. Is this merely an obssesion that's taken over my life?

Just help