Chronic BV & depressed.

I need to get this off me. I've been crying about it this morning. I've had BV off and on for years. And at this point, idk what else to do. When I first went to see a doctor, she passed it off as a yeast infection and gave me antifungal cream that didn't work. Then I went back, but to a different doctor. She gave me the oral antibiotics (metronidazole) and antifungal cream. Didn't work. I was on the oral antibiotics twice (maybe 3, I can remember) and it didn't work. The BV kept coming back. So I went back AGAIN and got the gel form of the metronidazole that you apply vaginally. It helped. The smell went away. The weird color discharge went away. I just had an itch, which I assumed was a side effect from the antibiotics. I used Monistat, which only made me itch more. Before I knew it, the weird color discharge was back. And so was the BV. The itching got worse as my cycle got closer. It ended Tuesday. And the itching hasn't been profuse. Not bad at all, actually. So I decided to try Rephresh. I helped a lot with the after period smell, and the general smell from the BV, but that slight itch is still there. Idk what else to do to get this BV under control and keep it under control. I take probiotics like they're going out of style. I wipe front to back. I take showers instead of baths. I don't douche. I'm not sexually active. I drink water all day. I just started drinking cranberry (unsweetened) juice again. Idk what else. The last time I went to the doctor, I asked her about boric acid capsules and she said no b/c it was acid. I asked her about Rephresh, and again. She said no. I'm lost. And depressed. My confidence is the lowest it's ever been and I feel hopeless. I want to be involved with someone but how I can I when I have this going on. I don't want things to be this way for the rest of my life. My family says that maybe this is something that I'm just gonna have to "accept." Are you kidding me? Says two people who's vaginas are working just fine. But yeah. If there are any suggestions. Anyone wants to vent with me. Any words of encouragement. Anyone who is or was going through the same thing as me. Please feel free to say whatever you wish to under here.

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Chronic BV & depressed.