Hello,
I am really quite nervous about making this post. But maybe I can get some insight from other people my family don't even know what I deal with on a daily basis, only God and I know my daily struggle.
Well here I go, okay to give them back in history I am 28 now didn't clean off of drugs for about 6 years, I had a drug history from the age of 14 and was off and on for about 10 years I had some pretty horrible things happen to me during that time one included a couple of drug overdoses the memories are engraved in my brain I will never forget and therefore I will never use again willingly. Anyways almost six years later I have been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder along with that comes my extreme anxiety disorder and a bit of depression make sense since I did so much damage to myself for 10 years. Now recently after I went back to college got a degree got a job got my family together had another child I've developed a most recently phobia of being poisoned or drugged. This phobia has caused me to have severe anxiety panic attacks a new diet because of it I shop differently now I always grab stuff from the back that seems like no one would be able to touch it I always grab the untampered looking item that has no cracks or bumps or just discoloration I even then we'll have problems eating it or drinking it if I leave my items alone for too long after I've opened up and started to eat them I will not eat the rest of them if someone prepares me food and tells me this is just for me I will not eat it or if I do I will throw it up. I recently ate something at work from a colleague that I trusted it was bacon and my stomach was sick within 30 minutes which convinced myself that I was drugged I went to the bathroom had a very bad panic attack and I had to leave work this is throwing me into a deep depression is anyone else going through this I feel trapped I feel alone I feel scared everyday. Will this ever pass?
I am really quite nervous about making this post. But maybe I can get some insight from other people my family don't even know what I deal with on a daily basis, only God and I know my daily struggle.
Well here I go, okay to give them back in history I am 28 now didn't clean off of drugs for about 6 years, I had a drug history from the age of 14 and was off and on for about 10 years I had some pretty horrible things happen to me during that time one included a couple of drug overdoses the memories are engraved in my brain I will never forget and therefore I will never use again willingly. Anyways almost six years later I have been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder along with that comes my extreme anxiety disorder and a bit of depression make sense since I did so much damage to myself for 10 years. Now recently after I went back to college got a degree got a job got my family together had another child I've developed a most recently phobia of being poisoned or drugged. This phobia has caused me to have severe anxiety panic attacks a new diet because of it I shop differently now I always grab stuff from the back that seems like no one would be able to touch it I always grab the untampered looking item that has no cracks or bumps or just discoloration I even then we'll have problems eating it or drinking it if I leave my items alone for too long after I've opened up and started to eat them I will not eat the rest of them if someone prepares me food and tells me this is just for me I will not eat it or if I do I will throw it up. I recently ate something at work from a colleague that I trusted it was bacon and my stomach was sick within 30 minutes which convinced myself that I was drugged I went to the bathroom had a very bad panic attack and I had to leave work this is throwing me into a deep depression is anyone else going through this I feel trapped I feel alone I feel scared everyday. Will this ever pass?
Anxiety attacks over food
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